you do. you did. you thought. you regret.

Okay, life's tricky at times that we wished we can rewind the past and had redone things we should've  thought over before we finally decide that its the right thing to do, if its the best choice out of those other choices,if our pride is the only option and dang worst, if we feel like deciding while you're at your maddest. If you took your time and meditated for awhile. Yeah, its the human term which is better known to the whole world than I wish I can redo things, its REGRET.

Before getting to that, my day today was as one minute equal to those of the other days like it felt like just a prick on your skin and the day is done. Maybe my day had ended but tonight hasn't. 

My grandmother woke me up 4am in the morning for the Aguinaldo mass or the famous mass, Simbang Gabi.

I got up and went to bath and doing my best to make myself alive. 

7am ticked, I woke up again and stared at my clothes. I forgot that I slept again. My mom asked me if I was ready, I told her I was, I lied. I opened the door of the car and budged in. She asked me why i wasn't in my uniform, I told her options were lacking, so the speck of my energy was the only standing hope to my self controlling. I was so freakin' tired, I can barely feel my toes.

Inside my classroom. Of course my classmates asked why I wasn't on my uniform, I told them why and lay my head on my pillow like sling bag. Before that, I asked Krishna why she was studying she said maybe a test would run along before time and its best to be ready. I agreed with her, I saw my book above the lockers, I laid on them and highlighted everything which I believe will be on the items. I got a high score. It didn't occurred to me till then because I was anxious for the first period to bell.

SKIPPED****

Taekwondo Christmas Party :) 

Marge texted me to come but I couldn't coz I have to go back home and change.

I wore my uniform when I got back to school and voila! Afternoon classes ended soon enough.

EVENING.

The regretting part happens here... I got a huge fight with my brother just because of useless small things that can be handled through good conversation... 

His eyes grew big if I'm not mistaken, threatened and scared. I told him that if I had the chance to cut his head off I wouldn't let it pass. He was scared of me ever since. I took advantage of our age gap but it wasn't really that of an advantage because he cared less now. He went upstairs and I turned my back against him and recalling that look on his face, it was horrible, he cant even lay his eyes onto mine. I snapped and bit my lip. I wish I never said that.

- Kel